Waking Up from an Idyllic Dream

Finally! I got the chance to end this foolishness... Yeah.. Let's call it that way.

As what the description of this blog was saying... "...Not your typical love story... One that had an ending even before it started... One that's been read even before it was written..."  This ended before... I was just too happy and glad to the extreme level I guess... That I even made a blog about this. Well to think about it... this is my first ever finished blog! Yeah. A record to beat.


When things you don't expect to happen came to life, you expect, you assume and then you end up hurt. That's no one's fault. Not even yours. It's what they call human nature. In the process you might blame anyone and everyone there is to be blamed... But life goes on. World won't stop for you. Sooner or later... You'll realized that everything ends. Besides being miserable is always a choice. Heart aches heal. No definite time but as I've said... Everything ends.


This story will always be a part of who I am. I love dreaming ever since. And that guy Isiah... He was my first craziest dream. There was a second..but it ended as well... They said dreams do come true... But I had two that did not. Well maybe love is not meant to be dreamed of...Probably love in reality is better. Well I can't speak of that... I don't know yet.


Idyllic Dream... ID.. I & D... Isiah and Daniella.. Too bad for him.. He did not see my worth.. Too good for me I need not to end up with a person like him. Okay... Those statements are bitterness... Well.. There's nothing really good to say. This one will be one of the things I'll laugh about in the future.


                                                     ~THE END~

VII. Shattered. Broken and Beyond Repair

The month of February is the heart month of course! So this whole month... My heart was floating and hanging in mid air... Waiting, dreaming and thinking of him...

And just right before this heart month ends... My heart fall to pieces... Broken and shattered. Oh hell! I don't even wanna talked about it.. This Idyllic Dream will forever be a DREAM..! My bitter-sweet dream.

VI. False Hope for Something Deeper

I was ready to set aside my feelings for him... Told myself to be contented enough with the photos and little talks we had.. but as DANIELLA's nature... I refuse to listen with all the warnings I gave myself.

I thought I wasn't mistaken... We even had a session at Panulukan Dos one Thursday night... January 27, 2011... It's just supposed to be me, kuya Chachie, ate Mhegz and Prince when we planned it... But then... Hours before we leave... Prince texted kuya Chachie to say that Isiah will come with us. Heart felt excitement rush through me...! So to put it all in a nutshell.. He did come with us. I never thought that'll really happen in real life... Sitting next close to him... Well.. We barely talk though... But still going out with him was the least I expected... And it was way out of the plan... So I really loved that night... Thinking that might be the first and the last... But hoping that it'll be a start...

It was Friday afternoon when I asked Prince why Isiah came with us that night... And Prince said he intentionally asked him to come with us.. And I asked whether Isiah knows that I'll be around.. And Prnce said yes.. He told him daw na kasama ako... So there's where the false hope arises... A week before that Thursday night I was annoyed with Isiah because we almost bumped into each other and he suddenly get back to where he came from... It was so awkward... So I thought he don't want what I was doing... And I was really planning to just get over with him.. Then Prince told me that.. And boom.. My stupid foolish heart sets her hopes too high again.