III. Moving On... Looking Back... Being Stuck.

Alright.. So that's how the story is going... I'm loving him without him knowing that I exist. Why am I so good at that..? I dunno... Whew! It's tiring and it's stupid... But stopping me from doing something I badly want to do..? It's one thing I can't and no one else can do... And I really do wanna love him. So fine... I did that... For so long... Then I got fed up... Or grew tired I guess. I suddenly found myself getting over my feelings for him... Even forgetting about his existence. But not completely of course.. Deep down inside me... There will always be this part of me that will remember him. Well.. High school... Found someone else to spent my time thinking that drag him away from my thoughts... After a long while I thought I'll leave that dream there in limbo... Im sure that there's no chance of bringing that dream into reality. But little false hopes won't just die. I was completely hopeless about him. I once saw him at Intramuros we walked right in front of each other but... Nothing! Because he didn't know me at all. Reality hurts.... But that's just how it's suppose to be right..? I dunno... But I still prefer reality.. Though I love my dreams... Because reality is where I truly belong. I don't want to exist in my dreams anymore. So I decided to just look back at him every once in a while... Whenever I do, I can't help but smile and laugh at myself. How silly I can get...? It's unbelievable. But that's how I am... And I often being stuck in my dreams. But the dream I had with him in it... Is my favorite one.ü