Waking Up from an Idyllic Dream

Finally! I got the chance to end this foolishness... Yeah.. Let's call it that way.

As what the description of this blog was saying... "...Not your typical love story... One that had an ending even before it started... One that's been read even before it was written..."  This ended before... I was just too happy and glad to the extreme level I guess... That I even made a blog about this. Well to think about it... this is my first ever finished blog! Yeah. A record to beat.


When things you don't expect to happen came to life, you expect, you assume and then you end up hurt. That's no one's fault. Not even yours. It's what they call human nature. In the process you might blame anyone and everyone there is to be blamed... But life goes on. World won't stop for you. Sooner or later... You'll realized that everything ends. Besides being miserable is always a choice. Heart aches heal. No definite time but as I've said... Everything ends.


This story will always be a part of who I am. I love dreaming ever since. And that guy Isiah... He was my first craziest dream. There was a second..but it ended as well... They said dreams do come true... But I had two that did not. Well maybe love is not meant to be dreamed of...Probably love in reality is better. Well I can't speak of that... I don't know yet.


Idyllic Dream... ID.. I & D... Isiah and Daniella.. Too bad for him.. He did not see my worth.. Too good for me I need not to end up with a person like him. Okay... Those statements are bitterness... Well.. There's nothing really good to say. This one will be one of the things I'll laugh about in the future.


                                                     ~THE END~

VII. Shattered. Broken and Beyond Repair

The month of February is the heart month of course! So this whole month... My heart was floating and hanging in mid air... Waiting, dreaming and thinking of him...

And just right before this heart month ends... My heart fall to pieces... Broken and shattered. Oh hell! I don't even wanna talked about it.. This Idyllic Dream will forever be a DREAM..! My bitter-sweet dream.

VI. False Hope for Something Deeper

I was ready to set aside my feelings for him... Told myself to be contented enough with the photos and little talks we had.. but as DANIELLA's nature... I refuse to listen with all the warnings I gave myself.

I thought I wasn't mistaken... We even had a session at Panulukan Dos one Thursday night... January 27, 2011... It's just supposed to be me, kuya Chachie, ate Mhegz and Prince when we planned it... But then... Hours before we leave... Prince texted kuya Chachie to say that Isiah will come with us. Heart felt excitement rush through me...! So to put it all in a nutshell.. He did come with us. I never thought that'll really happen in real life... Sitting next close to him... Well.. We barely talk though... But still going out with him was the least I expected... And it was way out of the plan... So I really loved that night... Thinking that might be the first and the last... But hoping that it'll be a start...

It was Friday afternoon when I asked Prince why Isiah came with us that night... And Prince said he intentionally asked him to come with us.. And I asked whether Isiah knows that I'll be around.. And Prnce said yes.. He told him daw na kasama ako... So there's where the false hope arises... A week before that Thursday night I was annoyed with Isiah because we almost bumped into each other and he suddenly get back to where he came from... It was so awkward... So I thought he don't want what I was doing... And I was really planning to just get over with him.. Then Prince told me that.. And boom.. My stupid foolish heart sets her hopes too high again.

V. Daniella's Favorite Gift

It was my nth birthday! :D let's not talk about age.. Hate it..! Basta! I'm forever 18..<3

So yeah.. My birthday... It was just a simple day... What makes it special is that it's my birthday! Ok!.. Big deal..? haha!!! I want it as discrete as possible... Hahaha!!! :)) So there I was turning a year older that day... Tell yah what it was my birth day that my heart felt happiest... Thanks to my kuya Chachie's gift...ü

Need I say more..? My favorite gift is him!.. hahaha!! :)) yep. Read that right... Him! As in Isiah Jerome Salonga...<3 yiee..! haha! He dropped by at our house! :) so kuya was repeatedly saying that Ijay's his gift for me... So I told Ijay.. "panu ba yan.. Gift ka pla saken eh.. Eh di saken kana?" He just smiled and didn't say anything at all.. :)) but kuya reacted.. He stayed just for a bit... And kuya told me that he's suppose to go somewhere but he chose to dropped by at my b-day... :)

I was ready to leave it all there... Just with the pictures and the very little conversations that we had... It was enough for me... But is it wrong to ask for more..? Besides... My mama likes him for me more than any other guys that I liked.. Hahaha!!! :)) but really I was convinced that it'll all end there. And I think I was particularly right. :|

IV. When Isiah Finally Meet Daniella

It was the first hour of the first day of the year 2011... My unexpected moment.ü Preparing to settle, go home and sleep just after the celebration of new year... Chilling and hanging out with my cousins right in front of our place... Thinking and reminicing the newly passed year... Unaware of what's just about to happen. When it suddenly happened! hahaha!!! :))

I don't have any idea how he'd appeared from behind me... One thing I'm sure is that he came up with a friend to pick up my kuya Chachie... For a new year's celebration of their own I guess... So yeah.. He was there when I turn around and I was... Nonetheless surprised! I was like... I dunno.. I don't know what to do... And I made some kind of a sign to urge kuya to introduce him to me... And presto! He gets it! After that I don't really know what happened... I was badly out of myself... :)))) it all happened so fast anyway... Then we had a picture together... And then... When we reviewed the pictures.. I saw that he hugged me! Damn him..! haha!! I didn't remember that.. Good thing I have evidence... :)))

So as I've said.. It all happened so fast... I really don't know how it ended... But that was my long-time wish... For him to know me in real life... And it happened... I love that moment so much...ü

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III. Moving On... Looking Back... Being Stuck.

Alright.. So that's how the story is going... I'm loving him without him knowing that I exist. Why am I so good at that..? I dunno... Whew! It's tiring and it's stupid... But stopping me from doing something I badly want to do..? It's one thing I can't and no one else can do... And I really do wanna love him. So fine... I did that... For so long... Then I got fed up... Or grew tired I guess. I suddenly found myself getting over my feelings for him... Even forgetting about his existence. But not completely of course.. Deep down inside me... There will always be this part of me that will remember him. Well.. High school... Found someone else to spent my time thinking that drag him away from my thoughts... After a long while I thought I'll leave that dream there in limbo... Im sure that there's no chance of bringing that dream into reality. But little false hopes won't just die. I was completely hopeless about him. I once saw him at Intramuros we walked right in front of each other but... Nothing! Because he didn't know me at all. Reality hurts.... But that's just how it's suppose to be right..? I dunno... But I still prefer reality.. Though I love my dreams... Because reality is where I truly belong. I don't want to exist in my dreams anymore. So I decided to just look back at him every once in a while... Whenever I do, I can't help but smile and laugh at myself. How silly I can get...? It's unbelievable. But that's how I am... And I often being stuck in my dreams. But the dream I had with him in it... Is my favorite one.ü

II. Daniella's Dream

I was a day dreamer... Young and know nothing about life when he suddenly came to my life... Learned how to love. Felt pain and cried... All because of him. I've been dying to meet him.. To know him... To be introduced to him.. Ever since I saw him. He has been a part of me. I've loved him in my dreams... And I always dreamt that he loves me more than I do.

Funny. Petty. Naive.

Hahaha!!! As I think about it right now... I can't help but laugh at myself... Feeling so silly.. But hey! I enjoyed staying at that dream... Sometimes I don't even want to get out of it... I established that dream and lived in it for quite a while... My world with him... It became my sanctuary... Sounds crazy right..? Well... Maybe I am. Crazy about him... <3

How can you love someone who didn't even know you exist...? Till now..that question still haunts me... But.. I wouldn't have any answer... Okay okay... Let's try this one: maybe I waited for him because we're really meant to be together... It just so happen that I've known it first long before he did too...? Oooh! Crap! hahaha!!!

So yeah... This is about my dream.. Yes..? Well... I made "our" world inside my dream... I knew every necessary details about him... Don't ask me how or why... I just know.. Vague as it may seem... But that's the truth... I just felt like I knew him so well... Well basically I found all the possible way to get close to him... There's the social networking... At that time... Friendster is still the most popular social networking site... So the basic infos were there and... Their house used to have a sign that it is for sale with their telephone number in it... So together with my naughty cousins we called the number and ate Camille talked to him... He has an angelic voice over the phone... And I was jealous of ate Camille because she's the only one who got to talk with him... So that's how it went... I even found out about his family because of that phone call... And with all the informations about him I had made the story of my dreams...ü

I. First Glimpse

It was one warm summer night... In the year 2003... One of those boring nights of vacation... Got nothing to do... Missing my friends from school and have no choice but to watch the basketball league in our barangay... It's been a tradition of my 3 girl cousins to watch it every year... Mainly because my male cousins participate in it.. And just like me.. There's no other things worth doing.. Besides when a game's ongoing, the crowds are loud so you wouldn't have a choice but to try to enjoy the game... That year was my first time to watch the league... I don't know why but somehow I was drawn to watch it that year... I'm with my ate Meg, Camille and Cheska.. We're watching the game from the terrace... Now there's this particular team that we're supporting. Though non of the members of that team is our relatives... The reason for supporting was that ate Camille has a crush on one of the players... The team's name is "princess gem" and all the player's name was a girl's... So 'twas kinda their girlfriends and such... But there's this one with a number 41 on his back... It's not a girl's name in his jersey... "IJAY" and he's annoyingly good looking... :) though he didn't caught my attention for that... Because I had other crush that time and my attention was focused on my crush... And suddenly while the game is on going... I watched a shot... A 3-point shot... And I was awed. From that night on he became the reason why I watched the league...

I always wanted to see him... Always pretend to watch the game because he's there watching too. As day passed by I've found myself thinking about him all the time... Always wishing he'll passed and stopped by... My mama liked him as well. But then the days passed and the summer vacation of 2003 ended... School time again.. My last year in elementary... Haven't seen him much during school times... That's why I always found myself wishing for summer break... Though it's not really a big deal not seeing him that time... I also have my crush in school anyway. But that summer vacation was really unforgettable... That was my first glimpse on him.

Another Blog

This is my 3rd one here in blogspot... Well it's not that I don't have anything to do... In fact, there's a lot more important things that i should be doing instead of making a new blog... It's just that... This is what I want to do right now... xD 

Anyway... This blog came out from an upset heart... Haiiszt!!! One moment it's blissful..then you'll suddenly find yourself wondering bout all the "what ifs" and "buts" and be miserable like a fool.. Okay.. I'm lost.. haha!! I don't really know the reason behind making this blog... But it'll be about my favorite love story..ü retold and explained.